Updated: Oct 17, 2019
This morning I woke up feeling a deep sense of frustration and emotion as I sat transferring my pay that came through for one of my jobs to pay the never-ending stream of bills in our household … literally to the point where all I kept aside for myself was $20! I was sitting here doing my usual morning computer work … see I get up at 5am each morning to spend time on my courses before going to work. I am working in 2 job roles, studying an Undergraduate, doing an online marketing course, working as hard as I can in the background to get my business off the ground and finally doing what I want it to do, and somewhere in all that I fit in time for me to do the things that bring me joy.
This morning, however, after sending off almost all my weekly pay, I felt that I needed to write. Not type, but actually put my pen to paper and communicate to the Universe what it is that I need in my world right now. As I sat there writing in my journal for the first time in 3 months, sending my written prayer to the Universe, a message pinged on my phone. I continued to write, the message could wait for a moment, yet little did I know that I hadn’t even put my pen down, I wasn’t even close to finished writing this prayer, that the Universe sent me the support that I was asking for. I sat there writing my spell and it was already woven and cast with immediate response.
I jumped onto a call with the answer to my prayers and spewed forth my inner frustration and released some pent up energy within me, only to be so deeply gifted with ongoing guidance to support me over the next few months in doing what needs doing to truly step into the next paradigm of this Life that I choose. You see, I am an expert within the work that I do, yet when it comes to business … clueless!
Two days ago, I woke up with a dream and, in that dream, I said loud and clear to my friend “I can feel a MASSIVE change coming, I can feel it so fully in my body. I don’t know what it looks like, but I KNOW it’s coming.” This morning, as I sat here with the light of dawn only just beginning to emerge, I noticed movement through the glass doors leading to the veranda, a baby snake. Snake Spirit journeys with me and I could not but help notice the synchronous moment of new life in the form of my Totem offering me a message of new beginnings.
I type these words with deep emotion in my Heart. I hold the deepest gratitude and appreciation for my connection to the Spirit world and cannot help but acknowledge the speed at which they have responded to show me that I am supported and held. All I have needed is someone to guide me along this new territory that I have been trying to traverse without the proper equipment. In some cases, I’ve had the equipment but not a clue what to do with it. Like standing at the bottom of a mountain with water rising behind me and there is no where to go but up, and I have all these strange looking metal objects and ropes to help me climb the mountain but not a clue what they are and how they work. So, then I decide that I am just going to have to free climb because there is no other option for me, this is the life that I choose. I make it a little bit of the way but then I get stuck and I try going back down to choose a different path which takes me maybe a little further, but again, I am stuck and all I can do at that point is literally call to Spirit and ask for help.
This morning I asked for feedback, for a sign that I am supported, for help in truly creating these dreams that I hold so close to me. I have to say too, that my dreams are not small dreams. The vision that I have within me is far greater than me, it is far greater than I could ever imagine to Be, yet I know that this is my destiny and I know that I have NO OTHER CHOICE but to climb this mountain, to move through the challenges and finally reach the summit because this dream is not about me … it’s about Humanity. It’s about Healing and Hope and Love. It’s about facilitating the space to create Change. It’s about being a light of Truth and Love so that others may recognise this light within them. It’s about teaching our young people the Beauty of themselves so that they can walk into the future upholding the greatest vision for themselves. It’s about supporting the shift in Consciousness and creating a world in which we can be in peace and Harmony, and the Universe has sent me my guide to help me and support me on this path called "business" so that I can do the things that I am destined to do and create the Magical journey ahead.
Call me an idealist, a romantic, a dreamer … I am all of those and MORE! I KNOW that all this is possible, because I KNOW that each and every one of us has the capacity to be more than what our minds can dream or conceive. I KNOW this because of the road that I have walked and the struggles that I have seen and the dark places I have been lost in … and I KNOW that it is possible to shed all of that and to pave a new way forward … you just HAVE TO BELIEVE!!!